Today is my sister’s
birthday. I waited on the yellow chairs at Menara Utama in front of Secret
Recipe. People-watching is great for the
soul, I concluded.
For two hours, I saw
wheelchair-bound persons carrying their own bags to go up to the wards. A few
were on crutches, but they carried their bags and walked with much dignity.
My home carers came to pick
me up for lunch. We went to a Western restaurant in Section 17, PJ. I had a ‘duck
l’orange’ that tasted like heaven….and chocolate cream pie that melted in the
mouth. My sister enjoyed her pasta and my daughter enjoyed hers. My mother got
her soft lasangne for her teeth. Every one was happy.
As I looked around the
table, I realized that the past few months since I got sick had really changed
our relationship with each other. Not only that they are supportive with what I
do in eHomemakers, my sister and my mother have been paying for meals! And we actually talk and laugh without me
being criticized. The support I envision whenever I pray to Goddess of Mercy is
working!
Remove the blockades and
let good energy flow freely in me and around me!
Buoyant by the new
bondings, I decided to follow the advice given my energy people. Forgive people
so that the energy can move, so that the universe can channel the good energy
into and onto you. Forgiveness removes blockades. So I must forgive my home
carers for everything－ for their skepticism of my non-profit work, their
unsupportive past and all the misgivings I have as a patient needing their care
and understanding.
In the car, I said to my
mother, “I forgive you!” And I hugged her.Taken aback at first, she finally
said, “I gave birth to you, how can I not support you.”
Then I said to my sister, “I
forgive you!” And I hugged her. She said, “Ok-lah!”
And then to my daughter, “I
also forgive you for yelling at your mommy!” And I hugged her tightly.
They dropped me back to the hospital and I
slept at 1 am instead of 4 am.
By Ching Ching
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